My modern day life is filled with stress. There are stress and pressures from all directions. When I go to work, I have to deal with an assertive boss, manipulative colleagues, backstabbing, my memory problem, my back and knee injury, coping with stress and pressures at learning the job (Time, speed and without mistake) and travelling long journey to work and back home in pack bus. At home – There are things like arguing with parent and brother about house work to do after hard days of work, bills to pay, my study difficulty, health problems of family members and mine. I have to deal with all these things.
So I need to learn how to handle this stress and pressure. I don’t have much money to go short vacation with my family or for myself. If I cannot go on a vacation to a remote location, I think of going to places within my city. I did try to visit the beach or even the nearby park. Just sit in the park everyday for half an hour, observing people around me. Forgetting all my worries for the time being. But the people are fucktub and they make my life stress and I don’t feel like relaxing. I did simplify the problem and I take steps towards a solution and look at the problem from different perspectives. I did look at my strengths and shift my focus towards those things at which excel me. Listening to music, going for walk, sitting at the park where there is no one, doing drawing and studying Math, English and Html and Css program but I still feel stress and not all the time I can do it.
By going for gym or pick up study or watch movie or go for short vacation or hobbies group or social group or exercise group. I see that I don’t have much money to do that and my money is for house and hospital bills and bus fare travelling to work. I went to church to join the social group, bible class, etc and community club to join the school to study or exercise group or gym, etc because of my KSA and I am poor – nobody wants to help me. So I don’t bother about them and I go in my way (I am a FREE THINKER) – all are fuckering asshole. Then I get very depressed and I am taking this anti-depression medicine Escitalopram 10MG two every night and last month the doctor told me that he is going to increase to 3 pills every night. My occupation therapy teaches me about Stress Reduction Techniques but nothing works. Months past and it took likes tough for me to handle stress. I did everything correctly but dealing with my family and people I get very stress and what I am doing everyday to deal with stress, nothing works. What can I do?
